oh my. it`s been such a long time since any one of us updated. so i shall, before this place becomes such a waste.

anyway. december is gonna be so soon. and adel will be coming back. she may be very reluctant to leave her heaven, but she misses her home. and no matter how undeniable that fact is, i`m still eagerly waiting and looking forward to her homecoming.

i`m excited but also scared. but it doesn`t mean i`m not prepared for change. right from the beginning when both of them(adel and ame of course) left, i`ve already made a point to myself that it`s bound to happen. but when it comes to facing up with the big fat reality. i realise it could be quite difficult.

looking back at the conflict back then we faced, i realised maybe i was still caught off guard. no matter how hard i tell myself that things would change, it still did catch me by surprise. and my natural instinct was to fight for the right things and cast out the wrong ones. but now, i realise that the world isn`t as i tot it was - just black and white or just right and wrong. it has so many grey portions and none of us can actually reach a level of just simply black and white.

maybe it all seem like a dream. for some, a nightmare that you want to wake up from. while for others, a sweet dream that you wish would never end.